Manusia Merencanakan, Tuhan Menentukan..

waktu itu gw udh perna cerita kan yaaa klw bulan ini terahir gw kerja? YES..tepatnya, 25 FEBRUARI 2011 would be my last day of working in the company..well, it is supposed to be today..

as the title 'Manusia Merencanakan, Tuhan Menentukan..'..

gw ga jadi berenti hari ini..NO..not today..next week? NO..not next week..but THE END OF NEXT MONTH..emg kadang klw gw pikir2, rada2 gila gw terima offernya..udh 2 bulan lebih mau kimpoi, bukannya gw pulang nyiapin kawinan, malah nyambung kerja..sudah sudah..jangan diributkan..*penggalan sinetron..hihi*

kenapa ini semua terjadiii????

alkisahnya adalah..waktu itu kita udh hire 2 people, sebut aja si S dn A utk d tempatin d keuangan..yg satu for my replacement..another one for back-up in admin, si A and account, si S..mereka baru mulai tanggal 14 Feb kmaren..gw kejerlah yaa ngajarin mereka..secara waktu itu gw cuman punya waktu 2 minggu utk ngelepas mereka..huhu..what's worst was that they never, and I mean NEVER work in the account department..yg satu pengalamannya tax, which is something different with keuangan..yg satu lgi malah dari engineering..duuhh, cape de kamu jeung..okee..
everything went well..until..hari RABU si S masukin surat ngundurin diri..duh duuuh, ak udh deg2an dong yaahh..apa kabar dengan my resignation?? tpi gw tetep pede gw bisa berenti..karna tentunya, si A masi ada..lalu..on a very nice Wednesday morning, my boss called me to his room..dia bilang 'i think, you have to extend'..jedeeeeeeeeenggg..dan gw pun hanya bilang 'okay'..

udh mw naik darah nii..tpi gw ya ahirnya diem aja..ya mw ngmg opo meneh, ya to? keadaanne wis kyo ngene..gw d suru cari2 orang baru..berarti, planning gw utk pulang 2 minggu lgi ga jadi..karna extension gw sebulan..trus, gw ngomong sama bos gw..klw emg extension gw sebulan, gw mw cutai seminggu..pikir2 punya pikir, kapan waktu terbaik untuk gw pulang? NEXT WEEK!! karna saat itu, belom ada orang baru yg perlu dilimpahin kekuasaan..hahayy..ngobrol sama mamapapa..mama panik..papa komennya 'ya udh, extendlah..' not very helpful, dad..

besoknya, setelah si S brenti, si A dateng k kantor dengan muka lesu..konon bru kelar sakit..trus dia nanya, si S mana..ko ga dateng2..trus ya gw dengan tenang and cold gw bilang aja si S udh brenti..she was pretty shocked..trus, ga lama, gw udh nyuruh2 dia ngerjain kerjaan yg suda cukup lama betapa d ruangan gw..haha..kesempatan boo ada orang..

then, sorenya, si A bilang sama gw klw dia mw brenti..JUGA..s**t..nyebelin ga sii?? gw ngabisin waktu gw 2 minggu untuk ngajarin mereka, trus ahirnya mereka brenti..alesannya 'saya terpaksa'..cih, terpaksa my a**!! *sorry for my french* there is no such thing..for me, working is about commitment..once you say yes, then it means YES..

my conversation with her, in front of my friend:

me: actually, we're a bit confused with the two of you..if you two already know that you were going to start in a new place, why bother accepting this job? to be honest with you, if you skipped this job, it would be better for us..we could find somebody else, instead of us wasting our time teaching you guys for two weeks, and then you left..now see what you've done? i have to extend for a month and all my plans are ruined by you..

her: -silent-

saat itu, gw masi belom ngamuk..pas pulang, gw nunggu makanan buat nyokap lumayan lama..udh gtu, ada temen gw yg ngeselin..nanya hal yg sama berkali2..bosen kaleee jawabnya..otw pulang, gw nyetir kaya orang gila..2x gw hampir nyerempet mobil orang..1x gw d maki sama atok2 cina bawa sayuran..haha..BODO'..ditambah lgi gw kejebak macet..makinlah gw naik darah..

ahirnya..begitu pulang, complaint sambil menjelang ngamuk k mama..ahirnya, mama ceritain sama papa..k kamar, ganti baju..gw pokoknya mau lari!! bukan lari dari rumah loh yaa..hihih..cuman lari d gym..hehe..

believe it or not..gw lari d treadmill, non-stop for 35 minutes..trus ga pake istirahat, gw sepedaan lagi, 15 menit lagi..itu yg namanya capek ga ada kerasanya sama sekali..cuman napas aja udh ilang..haha..tpi gw ga kerasa..liat2 jam, udh 1 jam aja d gym..pulang k rumah, liat baju buasaaahh..gw keringetan..asli..saya PUAS..marahnya juga reda..kayanya marah gw itu keluar barengan sama si keringet2 itu dee..hihih..

well..sambungan cerita soal cuti..ahirnya, saya harus pulang hari sabtu subuh besok..karna ada beberapa urusan yg wajib kudu d urusin hari minggu..jadi ya mw ga mw, pulanglah hari seminggu..i'm gonna stay there for the whole week..mudah2an semua urusan2 yg major2 bisa d kelarin yaa..amiin..

wish me luck girls..*crossing my fingers*

my own scary thoughts

daisypath udh 3 bulan lgi nii..berarti, insyaallah akan ktmu bey in about 2 months over..hihi..senangnyaaa..ak mw peluk2 pokoknyaaa..pengen cubit2, biar bukti klw udh real..hihi..

4 hari lgi nii gw kerja..to be honest, gw ga bgtu kepikiran2 banget tentang kawinan..ntah kenapa..klw kata rere, santai kaya di pantai..inilah yg sedang terjadi..padahal, yg masi belom kelar mah banyak buangeeettt..undangan belom (malah belom nemu vendor)..surat2 NA jga belom..list undangan juga masi jauh ajuaaaaah dari kelar..alamat para undangan, baru nemu beberapa..apik yaah? hihi..

those things don't bother me that much..what concerns me the most is our LIFE AFTER MARRIAGE..awalnya ga begitu kepikiran soal ini..cuman ko makin deket k hari H, makin kepikiran yaaa gmana..ditambah lgi, makin banyak orang nanya 'ntar gmana?'

hampir 3 taun yg lalu, gw ninggalin belanda beserta isinya..yg tinggal cuman satu orang, yaitu si bey..hihi..it was hard for me to leave the country, because I grew up from a teenager to a woman *ciiihh..situ pedee??!* there..I found my jati diri there..found my love of my life *shy shy cat*..but i moved on..I try not to remember the good times I had there..

now..i'm about to marry the man that i really love..but the idea of moving there, scares me a bit..because, i won't have my parents if i run out of money..yaaa..mungkin ga segtu2nya yaaa..karna kn bey jga ada penghasilan tetap..yg setelah kita itung2, Insyaallah bisa idup dn masi bisa nabung walo hanya seuprit..tpi, klw dulu, waktu sekolah, ada orang tua yg bisa d mintain klw pas duit lgi cekak..sekarang, moso mw minta sama org tua..dmana harga diri suamikuu *calon*? kasian donk..dia pan laki2..huhu..laki2 itu kn harganya dirinya setinggi langit..hihi..

okay..let's move on to the next thing..disana mau ngapain? you know what? soooo many people have asked me this question..NTAR, DISANA MAU NGAPAIN? KERJAA? frankly, i don't have the answer yet..but we do have some plans and back-up plans, in case one doesn't work out..ya tau2 aja yaaa..jaman sekarang kan lgi susah2nya cari kerja..whew..

tpi ak juga nda mau nyusahin suami..huhu..kapan itu, bey sempet nanya 'kamu mau kita sampe kapan di LN?'..wadoohh..saya maaahh ngikut yaaa..secara saya pan makmum..jdi kemana iman mw bergerak, makmum pun ikutlah yaa beserta para laskar2 kita nanti *amiin*..

btw, last night got an offline message from bey *sebenernya bukan offline sie..ym tetep nyala d bb, cuman karna akika udh tidur, jadi ya wassalam ajalah yaa..hihi*..dia bilang..there's a chance that our application for my visa would be rejected..ya mudah2an sie engga ya, Insyaallah..cuman, we never know what could happen, right? tau apa yg d bilang bey d ym?
kalo kamu ga dapet visa, aku udh mantepin hati untuk stay dulu mungkin d KL, cari kerja dsana..aku ga bisa pisah lagi sama kamu..

kebayang ga sie gmana rasanya baca statement begitu jam 5 pgi? apa gw ga termehek2? huhu..Insyaallah bisa..tawakal, doa dn usaha Insyaallah akan menghasilkan sesuatu yg indah..he's the best thing that ever happen in my life and he's the sweetest thing I ever have..bismillah aja.. :)

daisypath kaya sipuuutt -.-

tiap ari mantengin ini blog..liat2 daisypath, bertanya dalem ati 'kenapa siii itu daisypath jalannya kaya siput*..ciihh..ak benciii..

tiap ari juga mantengin ini blog..tiap ari itu pulalah jariku gatel pengen ketak ketik si kibot..tpi, kerontang ide maaakk..bijimane kaga kerontang? lha wong yg d kerjain aja ra ono..haha..

sementara yaaa para temanten *kata ning* suda mulai sibuk ber-ini dan ber-itu, gw dsni masi sante booo kya ga bakalan kawin ajeee..masi sante2 kerja d maleisiong..klw temanten laen ada org tua/keluarga yg rela membantu, daku mana adaa..

pssttt..mau curhat doonk *lagiiii???!!*..asli, lgi bete banget sama si angga..tdi malem, gw lgi kesepian..sedih ga sie *ini aja airmata gw netes lgi :(*? hihi..ga sampe 5 menit d telp, udh hrus d tutup, dengan janji akan call-back..detik berlalu..menit berlalu..lalu, gw pun mutusin untuk tidur dn ak ga mau ngomong sama dia..he's never there whenever i need somebody..he's always busy with his works..

preparing this wedding is even worst..i have to decide everything by my own..yes, he did give me some opinions about this and that..tpi, saat gw lgi ngadepin vendor, dia pasti ga perna ada..dan gw end up mutusin segalanya sendiri..kadang, klw lgi begini, gw pengen ngebiarin aja tu acara begimana jga gw ga peduli..boseeeenn..apa2 sendiri, kemana2 sendiri..i hate this!

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sabtu kmaren si mama dn papa bru pulang dari medan ceritanyaaa..seminggu lebih meninggalkan anak2nya yg cantik dn ganteng..makan eike terancaaaamm >,<

oleh2 yang kudapat adalah apdet tentang perkembangan persiapan perkewongan akika..apakah itu? KEBAYA..kebaya untukku kaahh?? hoho..tentu tidak *iklan combantrin style*..jadi, siapa punya dooonk? kebaya2 yg udh siap jait dn siap pake adalah kebaya tante2ku alias adek2nya papaa -.- maaaaaaaaaakkkk...doweeeeeennnggg...eike si capeng aja belom kelar yeee d jaitnya *ntah udh d potong apa belum tu kain jga gw ga tauu*

oleh2 lgi dari mama..dapet PL catering dari tante beby *yg sebelom ini perna gw sebutin jga d post: Petualangan di Medan part 1*..aiih maaakk..akika punya satu VeeR lagii..hhrrrrr..sempet diskusi sama bebey..cuman dese komennya 'klw ak sie bey, semuanya jga ak mw'..toweweweng..trus, pas gw tunjukin foto dari om gugel untuk pondokan yg udh gw pilih, dese malah ngomel2..cakeps..kata bey 'ak bete de sama kamu bey..yg begini2 ni yg ak ga sukaa'..ceritanya kn dese d NL makannya sedikit prihatin, jadi klw d tunjukin makanan2 yg uenak, suka sensii..hihi..maapkan ak ya bebeeyyy..

brigilla lately is having a very very very low self-esteem..dikit2, bbm bebey, ngmgin soal kegendutan..klw pas momen ga pede, dese bakal bilang 'gapapa sayaaanngg'..giliran pas gw bilang 'ak ko bawaannya mw makan mulu yaa'..komennya dia 'ini mw kawin malah makan meluluuuu'...huaaaaa *guling2 dilanteee*..hhrrrrrr...

makaa..semangatku adalah: MENGURANGI BERAT BADAN *tpi d tangan ada bolu gulung meranti rasa moka..hihi*

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ntah kenapa, tpi tiba2, jdi berasa kangen bgt sama bebey.. :( *si brigila berubah jdi brilebay*

it was over 7 months ago since the last time we met..
it was over 7 months ago since the last time we touched..
it was over 7 months ago since the last time i could actually hold him..
it was over 7 months ago since he was very real to me..

i know in about 3 months, we'd be together..but sometimes, even just waiting for a day to pass is hard enough..let alone over 3 months..

don't tell me that you never miss your other half when he's not around..
don't tell me that you never need your other half when you're not feeling well..especially when the 'women killer' strikes..

btw, have i told you that i put my resignation letter last week, the 24th Jan 2011 to be exact..sooo..officially, 25th FEBRUARY 2011 is my last day of working in this company....excited? YES, definitely..happy? I'm not sure, if I'm happy or not, because it's been more than a year I'm working here..I have a very good Malay friend..and leaving her, probably would be one of the hardest things to do..

after a week or two resting and nesting *haha..tetep duonk* at momdad's place, I'd be flying back to Medan..for whaatt? what else..my wedding prep..and also to attend the wedding of another blogger, si cantik Zeng Ochie..

another funny story about going back to Medan..mama was panicking because our invitation hasn't been done what so ever..haha..and then, conversation below took place:

mama: triii..undangan belom naik cetak iniii..adooohh..ngapain sii pake acara istirahat d rumah segalaaa? udahlaahh..abis brenti langsung pulang ajaaa *ini mak gw ngusir apa perasaan gw doang yak?*

me: yahh maa..kan cuman 1-2 minggu istirahatnyaa..gapapalaaahh..lagian kan, put masi pengen bermanja2 sama mapa..lgiaaann..ini kan rumah papa mama..kenapa pulak put d suruh2 pulangg??

papa *nimbrung dari ujung*: ya udh, klw ga, kamu pulang aja 2 minggu..abis itu, balik lgi ksni..ntar k medan pas udh deket hari H aja..*doweeeeenngg..gedubrakk..gedumbreeengg..semua panci ikut jatoh*

me: *speechless sambil muka miris*

another btw, gw menekenken kepada mamito untuk buat list undangan d excel untuk undangannya mapa..lah gw ngapain doonk? cengar cengir tookk..haha..yaa..undangan akika pan kaga banyak boo..*elesan klasik..giliran mepet bru nangis2..*

above all those things..ak kangen bebeeeyyy..