When i see at my LAST post, I see that the starting sentence 'it's been a while'. But I guess this is even worse! I can't really describe how long has it been since I wrote something.
So, what's up with me in the last years? Not much. Just being a mother. Having 2 kids, The eldest would turn to 7 in April and the youngest would turn to 4 in June.
So, not much really. Although in real life, the description of 'not much'is actually no words could describe haha.
Hmm..what should I tell you about this 'simple' life of mine?
My life actually changed after I have 2 kids, no maid, no family, with full-time working husband. At first everything was fine, really. Nothing special. The eldest needed some entertainment, some mommy time and the youngest would just cry for milk or sleep or new diaper. That's it.
But as soon as they start playing together, in this case my son (my youngest) became aware of his environment and started 'exploring' his sister's toys, that's when my roller-coaster life starts.
One day I went with the tram, and there is this American mum, she has 2 toddlers, and you can obviously see that she really, and I mean REALLY need a break. I told her, it's funny how people say 'having one kid and two kids is the same'. I swear to you, she almost exploded when she said 'absolutely not!'
Don't get me wrong, I love being a mother. How can I not love it? I get free hugs and kisses from my kids every single day, without me asking for it. My son even said to me "Mama, ik hou van je (mama, I love you)'. How sweet it is to hear that from a 3 year-old? Right?! I know!!
But sometimes it's just overwhelming.
And the worst part for me, I have no one to talk to. At the end of the day, when I sit down after the kids went to bed, I'd just watch TV. My husband is busy with his work. Can't really blame him. He's the breadwinner of our family, so hard-working is a must :D While I need to say at least 20,000 words a day!! I'm a woman, okay?! So I need it.
So I guess writing this post helps me reducing my number of words I have to say in a day.
Probably would write about something else next time. Just need to blow some steam off.
XOXO,
Put
